when you let go and create space, something new comes in

I enjoy playing with words. I remember falling in love with reading and writing from an early age, but I didn’t always share my writing with others. I’ve done everything from private journaling to writing blog posts to publishing poems. I published my first two journals in 2024 (The Daily Shift and The Story Shift). I want to create and publish so much more because it’s been a desire for so long and I realized I was the only one getting in my own way. I thought about what I would regret about my life, and I know it would be that I didn’t share my expression through books, journals, poetry, and even audio transmissions.

WHAT I’VE BEEN CARRYING

I’ve been internally struggling for the last few years, but most people don’t know that because I carry it so well. I’m articulate, and I have an extremely grounded energy. I have a lot of air signs in my astrology (70%) so that makes sense. All the “struggle” is within my thinking and this made me think about everything differently. Someone can look fine on the outside, but you just know something is off because of their energy, the way they talk about themselves or life, and the way they carry themselves. They overcompensate by underperforming or trying too hard. We ignore these signs because we don’t know how to really sit with things, sit with one another, and talk more truthfully. My goal is to prioritize my truth over everything else, even if it makes anyone (including myself) uncomfortable at first.

WHAT I KNOW ABOUT TRUTH

My truth can be that I changed my mind. That I used to like something and I no longer do. That I wanted one thing and then I don’t want it anymore. I can access my truth when I’m really present in the moment. When I’m able to hear myself and not be influenced by the noise of the world. By everyone else’s expectations or standards. I’ve achieved many milestones, and I have still come back to feeling empty. It’s because I am more than my achievements. I feel deeply. I think about a lot of things. I have a voice. I have gathered wisdom and insight. I can shift people’s energies with my own energy and presence. I am not here to be defined by my financial achievements or even the fact that I’ve created and built so much. I am someone who has taken an idea and followed through with it, and I’ve navigated a lot of doubt, uncertainty and struggle in the process. People are magnetized by outcomes and results, and they may want the same thing for themselves, but the question is, are they willing to do or become what gets you there? Do you know what it takes to go from unemployed, struggling with identity, as a new mother to becoming someone who knows herself well, creates for a living and takes care of her family with her creations? Do you know what it takes to evolve into that person?

That’s where all the inner work comes in. My first few posts will be experimenting with what to share and the themes I’m seeing across my work.

I could honestly talk about anything and everything. I’m drawn to learning all kinds of things, many systems, modalities, and subjects. I even have a master’s in social work so I’m drawn to understanding human behavior and helping, making a difference, and being a voice for others (and myself). As a mother of two girls, I want to raise them by encouraging them to be themselves, not who I think they should be (which is hard when you were raised to be invisible). Much of my works centers around getting to know yourself, knowing who you are, knowing that evolving is part of the process, and what it’s like to go through such change, especially the void, the liminal space. This is the hardest space to be in. I’ve been through this cycle so many times, and I still forget what it’s like when I’m in it. My thoughts are usually screaming, nothing is going the way I want to. things sucks. you suck. do you have any idea what you’re doing? just go back to how it was. And I simply notice it now, I get emotional and cry and let the energy move. And I tell myself, when I remember, that things are rearranging. The old self is fighting to stay but I’m done with the old self now, with respect, of course.

Yesterday, I spent an hour writing and realized, that’s not something that’s ready to be shared and I had to honor that. Today, this is what wanted to come through. Like I said, I can talk about anything but the only way I know what is meant to be shared is by tuning into my body and listening to what it says. It usually tells me, no, this isn’t ready yet. Not yet. Or it’s quiet, which means there’s no resistance. I follow my interests and I move with what’s currently present, not what I think I should be writing just because I have developed brand positioning, messaging and content buckets (I really do have these lol). This is to show you that I will honor the truth that’s present in this moment.

Here’s an example of what I want to write about, when the energy and focus is there. I try to do it organically, without pressure to perform or prove anything.

I know these are things that people are interested in learning about. These are the kinds of things I’ve learned, practiced and integrated over the years, but I’m more than what I know and how I see things. I don’t want to regret not having expressed more.

WHAT I’VE COMMITTED TO

I’ve made a promise to myself that this is the year that I will commit to publishing more — essays, books, journals, content, audios, maybe video, and definitely my products (my main business is The Gray Muse, a Substack launching for that soon as well). By the end of the year, I want to feel proud that I followed through, I experimented, I tried, and I learned a lot about myself in the process. That I didn’t let the thoughts or old self pull me back. Maybe temporarily but not for long. Because transformation is part of my journey, and it’s safe for me to expand.

WHAT I’M ASKING YOU

What would you like to commit to in 2026? What’s something you’ve always wanted to do but have held back from doing because you’ve been too worried about looking like a beginner or what others would say? Who would you become in that process?

Would it feel good to have done it though?

What would make it easier for you to commit to?

Would it be okay for it to look different than how you imagine it?

I know one thing for sure: when you let go and create space, you allow something new or different to come in. This is true for when you declutter or tidy up in your environment. This is also true for thoughts. For your schedule. For your life.

What are you ready to let go of?

What could this open space for?